Day 19 and 20 (Tues, Wed)

So my Doctor told me that I am at the nadir (lowest point) of my treatment. 

Low

All my blood counts are low still, and the past couple of days have been so hard.

• I spend more time with a fever than without one and have been up to 102 several times.
  
• I spend more time with my eyes closed resting or sleeping than open.
• I feel a little delirious or exhausted all day.
• I have a new rash, though at least it doesn't itch. 
  
• My lower lip is still infected and swollen,
• It hurts to swallow.
• I have almost no energy.
• I am wallowing in a sweaty bed (from the fevers) but have too little energy to shower.
• I have little interest in food.

Its all very frustrating and depressing--but hopefully will pass soon. I don't get the sense from anyone it will be that soon, but I hope so.

Something Nice

I don't just want to complain so I thought I'd share something nice. Jen has been able to visit and both days read to me. I don't have much more energy than to listen, but it was great. A friend had sent some choose your own adventure books--and they were silly and fun. Seeing Jen is the highlight of my days.